November 2010
“People frequently comment on the emptiness in one night stands, but emptiness...”
– House of Leaves by Mark Z. Danielewski
^^ My favorite line from one of my favorite books.
Thank you stuart…
On a whim, I came back to Danville. I vowed I wasn’t going to until winter break, because I don’t really have much to come back to. But I really wanted to see my best friends and be here for some events, blah blah blah.
And truth be told, for a second, I kind of missed it.
I’ve been back in Danville for 8 hours, and I cannot WAIT to leave again.
I’m currently...
Just so you know...
…Anytime I’m like, “OMG lets go on a daaaate!!!”
I mean like, a platonic date lol. Not a romantic one. No need to freak out at me, just sayin’ lol.
I had a girl totally freak out today when I was like, “OMG do you want to go on a date sometime?” and she’s like, “umm… I’m sorry, I don’t mean to be rude but… I’m...
TWO SMILEYS THAT DESCRIBE YOUR LIFE RIGHT NOW:
@_@ <——- as a result of all the shit I have to do before thanksgiving. This list includes: Rewriting a ten page paper, filming a 6 minute movie, memorizing three extremely difficult Samuel Barber songs, filming/starring in another 5 minute movie in french, working extra shift hours like a fiend, annnnnd figuring out how I’m gonna...
3 TURN ONS
1) Musicians. Guitar players and singers especially, because then we’d have that in common. There is nothing that gets to me like a guy singing and playing acoustic guitar at a coffeeshop. I melt every time. Purrr.
2) Guys that are good with kids. You can tell a lot about a guy from the way he acts around children. Like if he’s enthusiastically interacting with them, and...
Last 5 Years... gay style?
Singing along to my favorite musical, the Last Five Years, as usual today. For those who don’t know what this musical is, it tells the story of a woman named Kathy and a man named Jamie and their relationship over the course of 5 years. There are only two actors in the production. Kathy’s story starts from the end of the relationship to the beginning, and Jamie’s starts from the...
FOUR TURN OFFS
1) Mimbos. You know… “man bimbos” lol. Guys that just look really good (tan skin, good hair, perfect teeth, beautiful abs, huge arm muscles) but have nothing important to say. I hate it when the only thing a guy can talk about is how much he can drink, or how much he can lift at the gym, or just his crazy party life. But when I ask deep, thought-provoking...
5 Reasons Why Brandon is the Best EVARRR
1) He introduces me to beautiful works of art, such as Assassins Creed Brotherhood, which is a glorious game featuring the most attractive fictional character I’ve ever laid eyes on. He also understands and encourages my love for Ezio lol.
2) Because after sex, we sat around and talked about our favorite Spongebob episodes.
3) He also always keeps pork buns in his house, and sometimes...
5 PEOPLE THAT MEAN A LOT TO YOU (in no particular order)
1) Freshta Atiqi. Freshta has been my best friend since I was in 7th grade. We’ve gone through a lot together in our lives, we’ve had lots of ups and downs, but our friendship has always stayed strong. She is the most loyal person I can think of, and no one can make me laugh like she can. I love you, my rug maker <3
2)...
I spend a lot of my days crying over the fact that I don’t know what I’m doing in my life anymore.
I don’t have a major anymore, so when people ask what I’m studying, I have to say, well I’m inbetween majors right now. And I don’t like that. I want to say, “Yes, I’m studying public relations and film, with a minor in music”. And I’m...
I should probably stop being so damn nice...
In the last week, my kindness towards the human race has gotten me into all sorts of pickles.
First, I made eye contact with a sketchy dude named Carlos who was riding his bike past me. Well actually he wasn’t sketchy until he followed me for TWO MILES while I walked back to campus, asking me if I wanted to smoke cigarettes with him in some secluded park. No thanks Carlos, I...
SEVEN THINGS THAT CROSS YOUR MIND A LOT
1) *daydreams about puppies and Disneyland*
2) I don’t know how I got him. I dont know why he chose me. All I know is that I am so blessed and I am so head over heels in love with Brandon Samuel Padveen.
3) homework… homewo… home… homebook… homeface… face… faaaaace… FACEBOOK!
4) Even though I’m over...
EIGHT WAYS TO WIN MY HEART
1) MUSIC. I love love love musicians. Especially guitarists and singers, but really just anything musical is awesome. I’m a sucker for a guy who writes a song for me. And even if you don’t play an instrument or anything, being a lover of music is super important.
2) BE A NERD. Talk to me about your gaming habits (just not WoW lol), your love for ancient...
NINE THINGS ABOUT MYSELF
1) I really like Greek Mythology. My favorite goddess is Artemis. Because she shoots guys who try and look at her naked with magical arrows. =)
2) Puppies make me happier than any person ever could.
3) Guacamole is my favorite food. More than chocolate.
4) I only get along with girls if they are really chill. Otherwise, I’d rather spend my time hanging out in a...
One year ago today...
… was the WORST day of my life.
I’m not exaggerating. It was truly God awful.
It was Friday the 13th, first of all. I woke up to a message from my mom telling me that my Uncle Wayne, who was a very big influence on my life, had lost his battle with cancer. It wasn’t the death that got to me so much as it was the fact that he died in pain, and he died too early.
Later in the...
Brandon told me this morning that he’s going to LA for the night. Inside, I kind of had a mini freakout, which is pathetic lol. I’m used to spending most of my nights with him, especially on the weekends. So when he told me he wasn’t going to be around, I wasn’t like, “OMG I’M GONNA MISS HIM SOOO MUCH!” it was more like, “… aw shit. I have to...
Ten Things You Want to Say to 10 People Right Now
1) I miss our friendship. It seriously makes me so unbelieveably happy everytime I talk to you for even just like, a few minutes. I’d text you to hang out more often but… I am scared to. Don’t ask me why. I just am. =/ I guess a part of me doesn’t know if you miss me the way I miss you…
2) I love having you go to...
I'ma do one of these silly things :]
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now. Day Two: Nine things about yourself. Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart. Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot. Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done. Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever). Day Seven: Four turn offs. Day Eight: Three turn ons. Day Nine: Two smileys that...
I was looking back on old IM conversations I had saved. And I found one of the first conversations with Brandon I ever had. It’s really long… but this was my favorite part:
XchoirXgirlyX (10:40:06 PM): can i ask you something? SickCreatures (10:40:18 PM): of course you can XchoirXgirlyX (10:40:24 PM): have you ever been in love? XchoirXgirlyX (10:40:44 PM): or do you just believe in...
conversations i have with foreigners (part 3)
Guillermo: oh yay! I love parties! What are american parties like?
Me: Well this one is a pool party. And there's gonna be food. And probably a whipped cream fight, we do it every year.
Guillermo: ... so it's a porno party?
This weekend I had the opportunity to take part in a retreat for college students at a Buddhist monastary in Escondido, near San Diego. I went with my boyfriend Brandon and my friend Alex, and I felt it was a good time for me to really connect with myself and to learn to meditate and reprioritize my life. What I discovered was not what I was expecting at first…
The first day, not gonna lie,...
Brandon: *Tells really dirty joke*
Me: Brandon, why do I date you?
Brandon: Because I'm ridiculously good looking, and when I bang you, it's amazing?
Me: ...uh... that may be so...
^ lawl. we're silly.
Today I finished the song I wrote for you. It’s a happy one. That’s the first time I’ve ever written about someone for the happiness they have brought me. You inspire me in a way that no one ever could before.
That’s how I know you’re different from everyone else. Thats how I know you’re the one.
conversations i have with foreigners (part 2)
Vic: I do not get the chicks. I am normal.
Me: Bro, you're in the military and your a dancer. That's pretty awesome.
Vic: In USA, is very different. In USA, the women love the military. In spain, is very normal. and i dance good, but all think i am the gay.
conversations i have with foreigners (part 1)
Vic (my friend from Madrid, Spain): Come back to Spain, I make all your wildest dreamings come true. You will be loved by all the men.
Me: Victor, I don't speak Spanish lol. And I have a boyfriend!
Vic: It's okay I teeeach! And bring your fluffy boyfriend, he will surely get all the ladies.
Me: ...
AMERICAAAA! FUCK YEAHH!!
well… CALIFORNIA! FUCK YEAH!
http://www.cbsnews.com/election2010/state.shtml?state=ca&tag=el2010states;el2010statesDropDown
Cept I’m a little ticked about Prop 19 BUT… it’s okay, at least our voices were heard, and we got our foot in the door, this isn’t over yet =)
